So this morning marked an intersting time for me. We did not nurse. We have been down to one nursing period a day, the morning, since mid-december. Not because I was trying to stop but b/c CDH just hasn't been that interested. Yesterday mornig she pushed me away after about two sucks...she is finished.
I just wanted to take a moment and thank the Lord (as tears are streaming now) for the last almost 10 months (this thursday) of nursing. For those of you who have read this blog since the beginning have known the struggle that nursing was in the beginning. For the first month, the pain that I felt, the endless time spent pumping...the lack of milk actually produced, the internal pressure I felt (totally self-imposed) to produce milk b/c formula is so expensive...the bleeding, cracking...but then we went back to the lactation specialists (Praise the Lord for these women) and Caroline and I learned again. I remember that day, my sweet husband coming w/ me for support, and Caroline latching on for the first time correctly, and me looking at her and then the lactation specialist and saying "Oh this is what it is supposed to feel like. This doesn't hurt." Thank you Lord for helping me stick with it. For helping Caroline stick with it. For producing just what she needed. At one point Lord, you even prodcued enough to feed my nephew for a few days. Oh Lord thank you! This has been an amazing experience. I am so blessed to have done this. Even if we never have another child, thank you Lord for putting this experience in my life. I am forever changed, by those hours, that turned into seconds yesterday...Thank you!
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i know how you are feeling. it is a sad time. i was sad too when mags pretty much had weaned herself too....good memories :)
I only hope I can do as good of a job as you've done.
you are such a sweet mom!
very cool perspective. i definitely loved my time with luke, but not worrying about if i have salad is nice too. :)
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