This is hard!

We are in a new season with Caroline where opinions have seemed to come into play. She wants to be held most of the time, or actually just someone near by that she can touch. What this does mean is that last week she fell asleep on my chest for almost 2 hours (this hasn't happened since she was an infant), and she has begun to give on her own hugs and kisses...this is much to the delight of her mom and dad!
Meal time has become not so much fun again...crazy how when she was a new born feeding times were so difficult, and there would be spit up and the consistent question of "Is she getting enough?" still seems to ring in my ears. My daughter doesn't seem to want to eat that much right now...so again I find myself asking "Is she getting enough?"...and again still 8 almost 9 months later I find myself asking the Lord to take care of her, help her eat as much as she needs, not as much as her mom thinks she needs. O that I were able to self regulate my intake of food like she does. Stopping when full, not snacking in between meals....
But all that said, even though hard, even though I still wonder am I doing anything constructive, is she learning what she needs to, is she developing, am I training her to be a human, as well as be one that loves our Lord? I look at her joyful spirit and know that MOST of the time she is a delight, she is joyful, and she is well loved...the rest is up to our Lord.
So I leave you with these pics and this word from the Lord that is on her wall that serves as my constant reminder of what is important...
"Teach me your way and I will walk in your truth. Give me an undivided heart that I might fear your name." Psalm 86:11